Well, as I logged in today, I noticed the "last post January 26th, 2012"...eight days post appendectomy. At that time I thought I was filled with motivation...turns out that was not to be the case. I was happy to have survived emergency surgery, and feeling good about beginning to workout again. However, I didn't know what was ahead of me mentally and emotionally!
We all have things that identify us, with other people, as well as within ourselves. Those things can be wife, mother, Christian, worker, reader, etc. For me, what identifies so much of me is "Group Fitness Instructor" and having that taken away so abruptly and so completely plunged me into a deep dark fog that I have only begun to come out of the last month or so. What a challenge! It reminded me of a deep year long depression from my much younger days. Fortunately, I have been able to work my way out of it, with both my faith and my return to teaching.
I feel like I didn't smile at all during the month of February, and the first half of March. I needed the motivation that I was trying so hard to bring to others. Isn't that the way life goes? Things go well, then sometimes God says "time to put an obstacle in your path and see what you can do to go around it." The motivation came slowly, but it came....I found my way around that obstacle.
In mid-March, as I found my way out of my funk, I hit the weight loss motivation hard. After all, that is what I was hoping to do from the start, right? Find a path to a healthier happier place, and try to motivate others to come along with me. Well, I hit it hard, and less than a month later, I am down close 15 pounds!!! Last check was 197.0 pounds. And that is a number I haven't seen in about 8--EIGHT--years. Now, that is motivating!
