Wow!
When I thought about starting this little blog, I thought to myself "it can be just a little thing for you, because no one will read it anyway". And in the first post, (along with my dreaded weight number) I believe I put something like "10 people might read this". Boy, was I in for a surprise! A good one. I posted it, and in about 5 minutes, I was calling my friend...you know, the one who can calm you down when nothing else can? I was panicking because all of a sudden there were a ton of views. I was in shock!!!! Less than 24 hours after posting it, it had 88 views. I didn't think I actually KNEW 88 people!!!!
More than anything though, do you know what I got from that first post? I got such love and support. Everyone was so supportive, sending great comments and positive messages. I thought, okay, maybe this will help. People apparently didn't read it and say "Wow, she put her weight out there...that's nuts!" So, thank you to everyone for their support....I have a feeling I am going to need it through this, but I promise to give it everything I have. I may not get exactly where I want to be, but I won't have failed, I will just continue on the journey.
I had a YMCA member tell me this morning that it inspired her. That was so touching. I certainly never expected that! I hope that I am often inspiring when I am teaching a group fitness class, but never expected this to be inspiring to anyone but me.
Sometimes, with the unexpected, you have to just let go. Know that although it may not be what you were expecting, but great things can come from the unexpected. I'm not sure that this can be considered great. I mean lets face it, whether I lose that 40 pounds or not, it is not going to change the world. But it will be great to me, both health-wise and happy-wise.
Another unexpected thing happened Friday. The chocolate craving. You know it, right?...it creeps up on you when you least expect it. I have usually chocolate in my office, because I have people coming to my office all the time. I would walk by it on Friday, and look at it, and then walk back by it (wow, maybe this will work!). I left work on Friday without a single piece of chocolate crossing my lips. A true feat. But have no fear, my friends! The Super Chocolate Craving Man came to visit last night. Staring at my computer screen trying to make heads or tails of the annual open enrollment, he appeared. I stamped him down, but he kept coming back. Finally, my trip to the kitchen yielded two options....chocolate chips or yogurt. I ignored Super Chocolate Craving Man and had yogurt. Somehow after that, he went away. Hmmm....maybe there is a theme to this after all?
The unexpected came in actually getting through that. And that leads to the most unexpected of all, I have all of you to thank for it. I am on a roll, and through the love and support, I didn't let it go. I am the Honey Badger this weekend. I may eat the wrong thing, but I will get back up and continue on.
Those first few times resisting are the hardest and then it gets easier after that, way to stay strong!
ReplyDeleteYou are inspiring. Thanks for sharing your journey. We all have weaknesses, and I give in too often, but I try again, and again, and again, same as you. You cannot loose if the game is never over...and being healthy is a game that is never over.
ReplyDeleteYou are inspiring Denise, I totally agree with Joan.
ReplyDeleteMake that chocolate about quality. Only have one piece of the very good stuff when you have that craving (like one of the small doves) & I'd get the stuff out of my office. That would be way too tempting when the stresses of work get out of hand. We need some ideas of something healthier to put in a bowl for coworkers and help them through their holiday season too. Maybe almonds? or clementines?